with no one to blame for my insecurities

Ok, after a long text of how pesimist I'm feeling this days. I decided to leave you space. So relax, 'cause today it's gonna be easier.
First of all, the title, yeah, if I'm pesimist that's the reason. Anyway, you know why so I'm not telling you again. Despite the fact that I'm so frustrated, "that" was agreat text huh?! If not, I don't care 'cause I think so. And yes, I wanna blame someone, and I cannot find out who. F. this makes me more sick.
Oh, lately I've been listening to songs that Mark has produced or sang with the group Today my favourite is "Wrecking Hotel Rooms - MxPx". Awsome. You know when you're going to school at 7 o'clock and really feel like "oh my god I wanna sleep!", then you listen to this song and you're not sleepy anymore. It's cheers you up. Trust me.

Here's a piece of the lyric.

"Do you hold the phone when you're alone
Imagine that it rings then hold it to your ear
And wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep
Be with you in your dreams for the days I will be gone
I'll be there in your dreams and in this song".

Lovely.
Bye-bye.